June 24, 1919-Feb. 16, 2010On February 16, 2010 my grandpa went to be with Jesus. He is now walking the streets of gold singing in his beautiful tenor voice I have heard so much about. He is not hurting anymore and can breathe. I am sure he and my wonderful father in law are sitting around talking about geneology. I know what my father in law is telling him too...he is saying, "Don, I told you that you were Scottish. You kept telling me you were Irish, but I knew that wasn't right. I did all the research on the Finley family." If I know those two great men, they are just smiling at each other sheepishly not willing to concede. Maybe Grandpa is walking with my little sister, Kirstine, getting to know her. She was taken away from us all when she was just a month old. Or maybe he is reuniting with his parents, brother and sister. Who knows...but I am sure he is having a great time.
The funeral was actually nice (if you want to call a funeral nice). Grandpa told my husband that he didn't want it to be about him. He wanted it to be about Jesus. The week before he passed away he was asking my husband to pray with him. Brian had the chance to pray with him.
It still hasn't really hit me yet that he is gone. I still keep thinking that I can pick up the phone and call him. One day I know I will accept the thought and then try to pick up where I left off. Right now I just sit and think about what I wish I could say to him... or tell him. I have my times where tears well up in my eyes. I know that I will see him again, but I was not ready (nor would have ever been ready) to give him up. Even though we didn't always see eye to eye (that is that Scottish temperament) we loved each other and I felt safe around him. He always took care of me when I was little and then at times when I was older.
So, like everything, life must go on. Spring will come and the birds will sing...the flowers will bloom and new life will begin. The circle of life will continue. I just wish it wasn't so hard for those of us left behind.
I love you Grandpa and I will miss you!
Until next time ~